28.12.07
She's Gone
It happened too fast...It happened unexpectedly...
No one will answer my greeting of "Hi Mom" when I reached home after work...No one will call me and ask what I want for dinner everyday...
I guess she has lose the will...I guess she doesn't want us to worry...
She is gone before we knew it...Tears are shed, heart is in pain but life has to go on...I need to adjust to the new life without my mommy...
¶ 28.12.07 0 comments
No one will answer my greeting of "Hi Mom" when I reached home after work...No one will call me and ask what I want for dinner everyday...
I guess she has lose the will...I guess she doesn't want us to worry...
She is gone before we knew it...Tears are shed, heart is in pain but life has to go on...I need to adjust to the new life without my mommy...
In memory of my mommy... 30 Dec 1954 to 28 Dec 2007
26.12.07
加油妈妈
It has been sometime since I last blogged...
Well been busy clearing up my house and visiting my mom in Hospital... She had an operation 2 days ago to remove an abcess on her butt, as it is causing her pain and infection has occur... As of today, according to the doctor, her condition is not stable because of her not reacting well to the Antibiotic medicine...and blood pressure is on the low side...
And everytime (once every 2 days) she has to undergo dialysis, she seem to be slower in understanding what we are saying and reacting to our questions too... We have been giving her support but I think it is not enough for her... She told us today, that she feels like giving up, but after thinking of grandma (her mother) and us (her children) and being still young... She knew she couldn't give up, but she is feeling very uncomfortable, painful backache, muscle ache etc...
When she said about giving up, omg... I couldn't control my tears... heart pain... And I know the one that she couldn't bear to leave behind is my brother... So my brother definitely have to give more support for the moment...
Financially we also have to tighten all our purse strings lor... No more retail therapy, no more nights out with my friends... maybe have to lessen all entertainment le... If all these can let my mom be better, I'm more than willing to sacrifice... Please let her have the strength... Please let her go through this....
Actually we all suppose to go Hongkong tomorrow, I actually feel bad about going for the holiday... But it might be hard to claim insurance on our part... So we decided to go ahead with it, seems to have little (or no one voice out) objection on us proceeding with the holiday... I guess we might be more re-charge when we are back...
I'm depending on my DEAREST JOEY to take care of my mom for the next few days... Really appreciate that... Thanks couzzie...
¶ 26.12.07 0 comments
Well been busy clearing up my house and visiting my mom in Hospital... She had an operation 2 days ago to remove an abcess on her butt, as it is causing her pain and infection has occur... As of today, according to the doctor, her condition is not stable because of her not reacting well to the Antibiotic medicine...and blood pressure is on the low side...
And everytime (once every 2 days) she has to undergo dialysis, she seem to be slower in understanding what we are saying and reacting to our questions too... We have been giving her support but I think it is not enough for her... She told us today, that she feels like giving up, but after thinking of grandma (her mother) and us (her children) and being still young... She knew she couldn't give up, but she is feeling very uncomfortable, painful backache, muscle ache etc...
When she said about giving up, omg... I couldn't control my tears... heart pain... And I know the one that she couldn't bear to leave behind is my brother... So my brother definitely have to give more support for the moment...
Financially we also have to tighten all our purse strings lor... No more retail therapy, no more nights out with my friends... maybe have to lessen all entertainment le... If all these can let my mom be better, I'm more than willing to sacrifice... Please let her have the strength... Please let her go through this....
Actually we all suppose to go Hongkong tomorrow, I actually feel bad about going for the holiday... But it might be hard to claim insurance on our part... So we decided to go ahead with it, seems to have little (or no one voice out) objection on us proceeding with the holiday... I guess we might be more re-charge when we are back...
I'm depending on my DEAREST JOEY to take care of my mom for the next few days... Really appreciate that... Thanks couzzie...
19.12.07
Why Am I Troubled
Earlier this year, my mom was diagnosed with kidney malfunction and severe excess fluid in the body… was advised to undergo dialysis… However, she decided to give Traditional Chinese Medicine a try after a distance relative recommendation… her condition did improve and she was even able to work…
At first, she seems getting better, but I do not know why did she defaulted in going for an appointment with the Renal doctor in October… it was then the start in deterioration in her health again… we did asked her about her health progress, she lied and said it was alright…under control…
We began to be aware of her getting sleepless nights, coughs at nights, vomiting, diarrhoea, muscles aches, and again excess fluid (water retention) in her legs and abdomen… We tried many times to persuade her to the doctor, but she insisted it was just due to her not exercising, hence putting on weight… or it was her menopause…
2 weeks ago, her dry skin on her legs start to crack… then eventually water oozing out of the cracks, we have to bandage her wet legs and keep doing dressing but due to her diabetic condition, an infection occur… her legs turned reddish and white spots are starting to appear…
Every time, the topic of, “Mommy, why don’t we go to the doctor”, she would just ignored us, or say it’s ok… It took 1 week before managing to persuade her to go for a treatment at SGH…
It was only after her admission into the hospital, then I realised that she lied about her attending the doctor appointment in October… I guess she did not take the western medicine for the expulsion of fluid in the body regularly…hence this water retention condition occurred again…
Doctor called on Monday and inform me about her health, said she has malnutrition, severe excessive fluid, infection in her legs etc… Why Malnutrition you might ask? Because my mom has been having porridge for past 1-2 weeks because she has no appetite and constant diarrhoea bouts…
She is now recuperating in hospital since last Saturday… what was unfortunate is yesterday, she had a fall while bathing… I guess her balancing is poor now given her condition now…
Doctor did some examination, and found her to be all right, not suffering any consequences of the fall…But 2 hours after the fall, she was complaining about severe cramps in both legs (cramps that travel from waist to the feet)… but she is only allowed certain painkillers with the doctor consent first… so she was given a mild one, which managed to reduce the pain in the right leg…
My mom has high tolerance for pain, I guess it is really unbearable… She suffered the pain for 3 hours, before the doctor came to examine her pain, did a scan and doctor found things to be fine… have to see report before they can try any medication…
I am so helpless sitting her, looking at her suffering the pain… It really hurt me badly that she said, “Why did I agreed to come to hospital. It is now worse.”
Her leg infection seems to be recovering, no more wet oozing legs, and her water retention seems to be reducing slightly, main concern the doctors have now is the leg infection treatment…
Now our trip to Hong Kong seems uncertain, we really would like to bring her there… 7 days before we have to fly… Please let her recover soon, we are all so worried…
¶ 19.12.07 0 comments
At first, she seems getting better, but I do not know why did she defaulted in going for an appointment with the Renal doctor in October… it was then the start in deterioration in her health again… we did asked her about her health progress, she lied and said it was alright…under control…
We began to be aware of her getting sleepless nights, coughs at nights, vomiting, diarrhoea, muscles aches, and again excess fluid (water retention) in her legs and abdomen… We tried many times to persuade her to the doctor, but she insisted it was just due to her not exercising, hence putting on weight… or it was her menopause…
2 weeks ago, her dry skin on her legs start to crack… then eventually water oozing out of the cracks, we have to bandage her wet legs and keep doing dressing but due to her diabetic condition, an infection occur… her legs turned reddish and white spots are starting to appear…
Every time, the topic of, “Mommy, why don’t we go to the doctor”, she would just ignored us, or say it’s ok… It took 1 week before managing to persuade her to go for a treatment at SGH…
It was only after her admission into the hospital, then I realised that she lied about her attending the doctor appointment in October… I guess she did not take the western medicine for the expulsion of fluid in the body regularly…hence this water retention condition occurred again…
Doctor called on Monday and inform me about her health, said she has malnutrition, severe excessive fluid, infection in her legs etc… Why Malnutrition you might ask? Because my mom has been having porridge for past 1-2 weeks because she has no appetite and constant diarrhoea bouts…
She is now recuperating in hospital since last Saturday… what was unfortunate is yesterday, she had a fall while bathing… I guess her balancing is poor now given her condition now…
Doctor did some examination, and found her to be all right, not suffering any consequences of the fall…But 2 hours after the fall, she was complaining about severe cramps in both legs (cramps that travel from waist to the feet)… but she is only allowed certain painkillers with the doctor consent first… so she was given a mild one, which managed to reduce the pain in the right leg…
My mom has high tolerance for pain, I guess it is really unbearable… She suffered the pain for 3 hours, before the doctor came to examine her pain, did a scan and doctor found things to be fine… have to see report before they can try any medication…
I am so helpless sitting her, looking at her suffering the pain… It really hurt me badly that she said, “Why did I agreed to come to hospital. It is now worse.”
Her leg infection seems to be recovering, no more wet oozing legs, and her water retention seems to be reducing slightly, main concern the doctors have now is the leg infection treatment…
Now our trip to Hong Kong seems uncertain, we really would like to bring her there… 7 days before we have to fly… Please let her recover soon, we are all so worried…
17.12.07
烦
你好吗？ 好久不见， 你是否还愿意听我说说话？
我最近心情不太好， 太多烦恼的事情在发生。
原本以为我能承受那些外来给的压力，
但毕竟太久没有一个可以依靠的肩膀。
看着蓝蓝的天空，晒着大大的太阳，
心情仍然恢恢的。
想找一颗绿绿大树，靠在那稳固的树干旁，
静静的躲在阴影深处，好好的思考。
是我的多想，造成自己的烦恼吗？
我想只要能掉下闷在心里很久的眼泪，我就能从新开始。
我却开始觉得厌倦。
厌倦，为什么我总是可以一个人处理事情。
厌倦，为什么总是把心事放在心里。
我真的好烦， 烦得觉得好闷，好累， 好辛苦。
讨厌这样脆弱的自己， 讨厌总是满肚心事的我。
不想逃避，不能不面对，
但我不知道还能为你做些什么，
我不知道还能坚强多久。
只觉得我累了，现在只好深呼吸，继续勇敢走下去。 ¶ 17.12.07 0 comments
我最近心情不太好， 太多烦恼的事情在发生。
原本以为我能承受那些外来给的压力，
但毕竟太久没有一个可以依靠的肩膀。
看着蓝蓝的天空，晒着大大的太阳，
心情仍然恢恢的。
想找一颗绿绿大树，靠在那稳固的树干旁，
静静的躲在阴影深处，好好的思考。
是我的多想，造成自己的烦恼吗？
我想只要能掉下闷在心里很久的眼泪，我就能从新开始。
我却开始觉得厌倦。
厌倦，为什么我总是可以一个人处理事情。
厌倦，为什么总是把心事放在心里。
我真的好烦， 烦得觉得好闷，好累， 好辛苦。
讨厌这样脆弱的自己， 讨厌总是满肚心事的我。
不想逃避，不能不面对，
但我不知道还能为你做些什么，
我不知道还能坚强多久。
只觉得我累了，现在只好深呼吸，继续勇敢走下去。 ¶ 17.12.07 0 comments
14.12.07
13.12.07
Random 13-12-07
I'm bored, nothing interesting to update... only my mundane life...
Basically Monday went to gym as usual... but before that went to cut fringe at the new QB House... The aunty is slow, so it's not $10 for 10 mins... LoL... and she cut so much till I quite shock... now my fringe is short and looks weird... Haiz... itchy lah, want to try new place, should have just went back to EC inside Lot1...
Tuesday, went shopping with KT and Joanna... Joanna is buying some christmas presents, so I was there to window shop and accompany her lah... KT's treating again, cos no. 1 and no. 2 together appear he can't avoid one... that's why ppl got mistress must be rich enough... Haha... funny incident is Joanna gave KT a $10 note, then after that realised her whole wallet (Gucci one hor) only left $0.10... pengz!!!
Wednesday, went gym again lor... my life now only revolve around, work-gym-home-ktv this 4 things... very important to me now... can't live without them... Haha
Thursday, work abit of OT... then took Bus 190 back home... many commuters are very selfish lor, for example, board bus at Funan Centre, then alighting at Far East Plaza, they won't move to the rear even though it is empty... Yes, EMPTY... seats are all taken up, but standing room is 100% clear... instead the people who board after them all also did not move to the rear, because 5 ppl that are near the back door, are all alighting at Orchard stops...
Haiz... PRCs together with Singaporeans... We make the world a better place NOT...
Then my plans for tomorrow Friday is to go shopping with joey... need to buy someone's birthday present... actually got 2 lah, both also know what to buy but hor, 1 is harder lah, cos I dunno the preference... LoL
Saturday is gym day also... then follow by a very important visit that we have been trying to persuade HER to go... my HK trip is in 2 weeks time, please let everything be SHUN SHUN LI LI.... thank you!! *\('-')/*
Basically Monday went to gym as usual... but before that went to cut fringe at the new QB House... The aunty is slow, so it's not $10 for 10 mins... LoL... and she cut so much till I quite shock... now my fringe is short and looks weird... Haiz... itchy lah, want to try new place, should have just went back to EC inside Lot1...
Tuesday, went shopping with KT and Joanna... Joanna is buying some christmas presents, so I was there to window shop and accompany her lah... KT's treating again, cos no. 1 and no. 2 together appear he can't avoid one... that's why ppl got mistress must be rich enough... Haha... funny incident is Joanna gave KT a $10 note, then after that realised her whole wallet (Gucci one hor) only left $0.10... pengz!!!
Wednesday, went gym again lor... my life now only revolve around, work-gym-home-ktv this 4 things... very important to me now... can't live without them... Haha
Thursday, work abit of OT... then took Bus 190 back home... many commuters are very selfish lor, for example, board bus at Funan Centre, then alighting at Far East Plaza, they won't move to the rear even though it is empty... Yes, EMPTY... seats are all taken up, but standing room is 100% clear... instead the people who board after them all also did not move to the rear, because 5 ppl that are near the back door, are all alighting at Orchard stops...
Haiz... PRCs together with Singaporeans... We make the world a better place NOT...
Then my plans for tomorrow Friday is to go shopping with joey... need to buy someone's birthday present... actually got 2 lah, both also know what to buy but hor, 1 is harder lah, cos I dunno the preference... LoL
Saturday is gym day also... then follow by a very important visit that we have been trying to persuade HER to go... my HK trip is in 2 weeks time, please let everything be SHUN SHUN LI LI.... thank you!! *\('-')/*
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¶ 13.12.07 0 comments
12.12.07
ComfortDelGro Taxi Fares Revision
From next Monday 17 Dec 2007, many people will avoid taking ComfortDelGro’s taxis (Comfort, CityCab)
First of all, flagging down the cab, increase of $0.30 (currently $2.50), the metered fare also adjusted, it use to be $0.10 per 192.5m (average) now it is $0.20 per 357.5m…
Then instead of the current $2 peak hour surcharge, we will be paying 35% of the metered fare…
CBD surcharge is increased from $1 to $3…
Midnight Surcharge is no longer charged at the staggered rate of 10% to 50%, now back to the standard 50% surcharge of metered fare…
Booking fare for non-peak hours remained unchanged, and a reduction of $0.50 from current $4.00 for peak hours rates…
As an example, ComfortDelGro says a 9-kilometre trip off-peak will cost $8.40 (a 10% increase from the current $7.65) while a trip of the same distance during peak hours will cost $11.40 (a 49% increase from the current $7.65).
Jialat lah, I always take long journey, who ask me to stay so ulu… 9km trip only 10% increase, seems insignificant, but I usually is like 20km trip, affected a lot lor… cannot take taxi liao, must join the SMRT Night Rider Club liao… LoL
First of all, flagging down the cab, increase of $0.30 (currently $2.50), the metered fare also adjusted, it use to be $0.10 per 192.5m (average) now it is $0.20 per 357.5m…
Then instead of the current $2 peak hour surcharge, we will be paying 35% of the metered fare…
CBD surcharge is increased from $1 to $3…
Midnight Surcharge is no longer charged at the staggered rate of 10% to 50%, now back to the standard 50% surcharge of metered fare…
Booking fare for non-peak hours remained unchanged, and a reduction of $0.50 from current $4.00 for peak hours rates…
As an example, ComfortDelGro says a 9-kilometre trip off-peak will cost $8.40 (a 10% increase from the current $7.65) while a trip of the same distance during peak hours will cost $11.40 (a 49% increase from the current $7.65).
Jialat lah, I always take long journey, who ask me to stay so ulu… 9km trip only 10% increase, seems insignificant, but I usually is like 20km trip, affected a lot lor… cannot take taxi liao, must join the SMRT Night Rider Club liao… LoL
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¶ 12.12.07 0 comments
10.12.07
...
Everyday I'm facing your problems together, yet I do not get your corporation in seeking outside help...
It would only force me to look forward to escape the obstacles ahead... When things don't go your way, things don't look good, shouldn't we try to cross the hurdles, overcome and embrace things in our stride...
I guess your fear has made you a coward, refusing to face reality...
Worried... about you bottling up your troubles... Worried... about you denying the problems... Worried and yet I... .... I feel so lousy, I feel so useless, I feel like giving up...
It would only force me to look forward to escape the obstacles ahead... When things don't go your way, things don't look good, shouldn't we try to cross the hurdles, overcome and embrace things in our stride...
I guess your fear has made you a coward, refusing to face reality...
Worried... about you bottling up your troubles... Worried... about you denying the problems... Worried and yet I... .... I feel so lousy, I feel so useless, I feel like giving up...
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¶ 10.12.07 0 comments
BPL Dec 8 - Dec 9
Finally after trying my luck at betting with Singapore Pool for the BPL Matches, finally won abit of money…
Luckily everytime I only played $5 and this time I shall thanks C.Ronaldno for diving and let me win $$… till 93 mins it was still 3-1 and heng he dived lor, gotten a penalty for Man Utd then in the end the results was 4-1… so I won the, Total goals 5, bet for $27 (odds 1:5.4)
Think shall not bet on Chelsea’s matches liao, always lose one… next time if wanna bet, shall place on some other teams…
Then very happy Arsenal finally LOST!!! Clean sheets for 16 matches gone… hmmm, too many injuries liao… anyway I don’t like them, can’t wait for Chelsea to keep climbing and now Drogba undergo surgery, haiz, hopefully you know who (Sheva) can pull up his socks lah… At least try to perform better in Champions League bah!!!
Then Liverpool manager also siao one, I saw the newspaper report that he rather concentrate on the Champions League match coming up and rest his main players during the Reading match… and lost 3-1 somemore… OMG OMG… When I first started watching Chelsea matches last season, I was very impressed with the players and manager determination, even they just returned from some away match (be it near or far) the starting 11 is always almost the same… LoL… and Chelsea got the money to buy quality players that are already sitting on the benches lor… actually can rest the starting 11 but usually they don’t…
Maybe Rafa need to think clearly about the players’ feelings… their frustrations… although I’m happy Liverpool lose, because even with 1 match less, they can’t overtake Chelsea for the moment…
Next week, Clashes of the Titans again... Man Utd Vs Liverpool then Arsenal Vs Chelsea... Man Utd one I think will draw, then Arsenal might win by 1 goal... LoL
Luckily everytime I only played $5 and this time I shall thanks C.Ronaldno for diving and let me win $$… till 93 mins it was still 3-1 and heng he dived lor, gotten a penalty for Man Utd then in the end the results was 4-1… so I won the, Total goals 5, bet for $27 (odds 1:5.4)
Think shall not bet on Chelsea’s matches liao, always lose one… next time if wanna bet, shall place on some other teams…
Then very happy Arsenal finally LOST!!! Clean sheets for 16 matches gone… hmmm, too many injuries liao… anyway I don’t like them, can’t wait for Chelsea to keep climbing and now Drogba undergo surgery, haiz, hopefully you know who (Sheva) can pull up his socks lah… At least try to perform better in Champions League bah!!!
Then Liverpool manager also siao one, I saw the newspaper report that he rather concentrate on the Champions League match coming up and rest his main players during the Reading match… and lost 3-1 somemore… OMG OMG… When I first started watching Chelsea matches last season, I was very impressed with the players and manager determination, even they just returned from some away match (be it near or far) the starting 11 is always almost the same… LoL… and Chelsea got the money to buy quality players that are already sitting on the benches lor… actually can rest the starting 11 but usually they don’t…
Maybe Rafa need to think clearly about the players’ feelings… their frustrations… although I’m happy Liverpool lose, because even with 1 match less, they can’t overtake Chelsea for the moment…
Next week, Clashes of the Titans again... Man Utd Vs Liverpool then Arsenal Vs Chelsea... Man Utd one I think will draw, then Arsenal might win by 1 goal... LoL
Labels: Soccer
¶ 10.12.07 0 comments
5.12.07
Nicks
Recently have been naming people after songs…
Someone has a nick of 倒带 Due to 过去甜蜜在倒带，只是感觉已经不在。。。
Someone has a nick of 想太多 Due to 是我想太多，你总这样说。。。
Been giving people nicks so we can secretly talk about them without others knowing… LoL
Last time also have others, example 自 high… LoL… for only for those who knows… I’m having a great time gossiping… Haha
Someone has a nick of 倒带 Due to 过去甜蜜在倒带，只是感觉已经不在。。。
Someone has a nick of 想太多 Due to 是我想太多，你总这样说。。。
Been giving people nicks so we can secretly talk about them without others knowing… LoL
Last time also have others, example 自 high… LoL… for only for those who knows… I’m having a great time gossiping… Haha
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¶ 5.12.07 0 comments
Resignation
As a Boss, what if your employee give you this resignation letter....
ps: it was a forwarded email... my boss never received it... LoL
ps: it was a forwarded email... my boss never received it... LoL
Labels: Random
¶ 5.12.07 0 comments
3.12.07
Finally...
went KTV with Joey after soooOooo longggGGgg... LoL
And we actually went for K-Lunch (11am till 2pm) at Suntec outlet... it just shows how desperate we are for the much-long-awaitedaffair...erm...event
Haha, well did some long-time-never-do retail therapy... because Joey was busy studying for exams, I got no khakis to go shopping with...
Hehe, bought 2 tops from cotton-on at $20, then a pair of jeans from Dorothy Perkins at $43 (it's cheap)... so I did spent alot of money as compare to my fasting period... LoL...
Okie, then we went for drinks at TCC at Citilink for 1hour+... Then went to MPH to read our zodiac predictions for year 2008... They say my love life (romance) is very good wor... Only lunar 6th and 8th month got 2 stars... all is 3 stars and above... LoL... so does it mean I will have lotsSsss of 桃花 ... We had a great time reading through the Lilian Too's book (erm if you do not know her, as a Malaysian she's quite famous as a fengshui master in Singapore and Malaysia and released many books on Fengshui and Zodiacs, her daughter is also following her footsteps...)
Then we went for dinner at the Hongkong Cafe at Marina Square... Camera Whoring for awhile then it's time to go home... because it was quite early 7+ only, we got seats on 190... unbelievable hor...
Oh, btw I'm now addicted to watching Coffee Prince... Only left 3 more episodes to finish... In total there are 27 episodes I think, and I just started watching on Friday night... HeeZzzz
Then this week never jog alot leh, went alone at my estate area... so Today and Tomorrow going to go gym with Joey AS USUAL... *\('-')/*
And we actually went for K-Lunch (11am till 2pm) at Suntec outlet... it just shows how desperate we are for the much-long-awaited
Haha, well did some long-time-never-do retail therapy... because Joey was busy studying for exams, I got no khakis to go shopping with...
Hehe, bought 2 tops from cotton-on at $20, then a pair of jeans from Dorothy Perkins at $43 (it's cheap)... so I did spent alot of money as compare to my fasting period... LoL...
Okie, then we went for drinks at TCC at Citilink for 1hour+... Then went to MPH to read our zodiac predictions for year 2008... They say my love life (romance) is very good wor... Only lunar 6th and 8th month got 2 stars... all is 3 stars and above... LoL... so does it mean I will have lotsSsss of 桃花 ... We had a great time reading through the Lilian Too's book (erm if you do not know her, as a Malaysian she's quite famous as a fengshui master in Singapore and Malaysia and released many books on Fengshui and Zodiacs, her daughter is also following her footsteps...)
Then we went for dinner at the Hongkong Cafe at Marina Square... Camera Whoring for awhile then it's time to go home... because it was quite early 7+ only, we got seats on 190... unbelievable hor...
Oh, btw I'm now addicted to watching Coffee Prince... Only left 3 more episodes to finish... In total there are 27 episodes I think, and I just started watching on Friday night... HeeZzzz
Then this week never jog alot leh, went alone at my estate area... so Today and Tomorrow going to go gym with Joey AS USUAL... *\('-')/*
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¶ 3.12.07 0 comments
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