I rot at home yesterday and I keep eating and seems like wasted my efforts in jian fei-ing last Sunday… LoL

And we have discussed about the year end trip and since we can’t afford to go Taipei for 4 person at the moment, we can only go in June 2007 lor… maybe then our cousins can go with us… LoL

Then we decided to go either Kuala Lumpur or Penang in December and I actually got urge to go Bangkok but my mom say don’t want Bangkok so I no choice lor… KL also can go shopping lah, but its about the same as Singapore anyway…

My cousins are going Bangkok in December also, I wonder have they finalised it and if possible can I follow? I think they are leaving in the first week of Dec bah…

My last holiday was to Genting in June only and it’s not enough lor… And where have my travelling khakis gone too… Our October Cambodia trip cannot go ahead due to their leave not approved but no follow up from them le… don’t know whether they try to change another date or they just give up le… I guess now our priorities all different le, people change over the years anyway, even if I don’t change, others will…

Do I sound sore or anything, don’t get me wrong lah, I understand that friends cannot be forever and as long at the moment things / feelings are true, there shouldn’t be any regrets… And luckily that I have a true friend (from Poly days), KT… he understand me most anyway, and I know I can depend on him if I have any problems, so far he is the one who understand how I really felt when I wrote the “Merry Xmas” entry…

And I still have Dor who will stand by my decision even I’m wrong… LoL, Dor knew that I was blinded by many things and tried to make me understand in a mild way but it just can’t get into my head till things are really beyond my control…

But whatever lah, I have already move on and it seems to distance myself is the best way to really let go (at that time lah)… felt as though I have lost 2 good friends in a way but no choice lah, I feel that I’m not a treasured friend after all (or it could be my inferior complex acting up again)…I just feel so unsure of myself at times…

And I seem to have lost the touch to make new friends… I wonder what went wrong…