Hehe, tonight going to Double O... No occasion but just felt like going... Actually was planning to go Pub more relaxing than Club lor but our Mr. Xiong said Club else can forget about it...

Haha, so no choice lah, who ask me to provoke him... So tonight is my retribution night... Wo Zai Ye Bu Gan Le... Lolx...

I will update again on tonight if it's fun... Hopefully tml I still can make it for the Wedding and BBQ at night...


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Haha, I had a great night, and Graveyard is really BITTER lor and I had 3/4 cup and can't make it liao... Go toilet also can't walk a straight line... Haha, but I decided to stop after getting giddy (from the "high-ness") and at the end of the night, managed to regain some composture...

Sorry ah, got take more photos but in a state of can't hold things properly, many turn out blur or too dark... Cos HP Camera mah, even if I turned on the flashlight also can't see clearly... James was the worse case lor, he drank 2.5 cups of Graveyard then start to concuss liao...

And Xiong is a real good drinker man... Haha... *Applause* *claps*

ps: I'm forgiven liao and Xiong says next is Sean liao, wahahaha and I did not merlion# at all....

#vomit

Scenario:

I was waiting at the pedestrian crossing and an elderly man was struggling to cross the road that has a 2cm high kerb. I held out my hand and even with my support he's still slow and unstable due to his weak legs.

This got me pondering, will I be like that when I grow old... Or would I just suddenly leave... Life is Vulnerable, Unpredicatable... Hence gotto appreciated and make full use of it...I do not want to regret anything later in my life, I already had one...

Although there are times where even you work hard for it and no outcome but at least you have tried...

Oh ya, recently read xx's entry and I do not agree with it lah... Some ppl do not have a choice and yes I know only the strongest survive, but in comparison given them the chance to be in our shoes I guess it will become a different story and a different life...Maybe it's just that my heart is not as hard as hers... I cry over touching scenes on TV programs, over quarrels... and I pity others.... Okok, whatever lah!!

This entry kind of serious hor, well... Been thinking of some things recently, and wondering how and what should I do to accomplish my goal...

I need a break too, I realise my motivation to work is lessening, think I need a holiday... Somewhere to clear and recharged, Somewhere of different culture, so that I can learn more??

Well, for the time being, work hard first bah, earn enough then can go holiday...

Oh no, I’m having some kind of appetite loss for the past 3 days liao...

Ever since Saturday (erm considered Sunday liao, cos it was 2am) ate the Prata hor, I have not been eating well wor...


Sunday, 23 April 2006: -

Whole Day I only had one meal that’s my dinner, I woke up at 1130am but I didn’t feel hungry till around 6plus then I ate a little rice (my usual portion for dinner and accordingly to my mom, I’m eating like a sparrow, haha) then till around 11pm, hungry again so I drank a cup of milo, then slept at 12midnight lor...


Monday, 24 April 2006: -

For my breakfast sometimes I can eat a lot of things but yesterday I only had a slice of Pandan cake and my usual cup of Teh-C then during lunch I ate some teochew style porridge (3/4 bowl only I’m full liao)… At night, I do not have the appetite to eat dinner, so I actually skipped dinner, hehe...


Tuesday 25 April 2006: -

I do not even have the appetite to eat things lor, I bought some biscuits in case of sudden hunger so I only had my usual Teh-C lor… later lunch going Golden Shoe with Link… hopefully got appetite to finish the whole bowl lor, else something sure wrong liao...

The last time my loss of appetite happened; I think nearly 1 year ago, that’s was when I was with the gang at Kuala Lumpur during the May Day long weekend last year… wah seh, annual event meh??

But I couldn’t be having indigestion because I do feel the hunger pangs, but when the food appears and once I start having a few mouths, the appetite is gone...

Haiz... ... ... What’s wrong!!

ps: Sian, I can feel the churning liao, my gastric pain going to start today or tomorrow le...

Today is the start of a new week again and somehow no matter how happy I am for the past weekend the dread blues never failed to make me feel down in the dumps…

Okie, maybe think of enjoyable things I might feel better…

Friday after work, I very happy went shopping at Marina Square… Bought a pair of shoes, 1 outfit (a skirt and a top, kinda casual for work or outing also can)… then bought Famous Amos, my sister asked me to buy Ink for the printer so I walked to Carrefour… haha, super tiring lor… but I finished all shopping in around 1½ hour… then went home liao…

As I know Little Match Girl got private sales (for members only) of 30% so I went there for some clothes lor... Last time bought a skirt there like it alot but too short and I do not look good in it (so I gave it to my cousin, I only wore it for 2times, don't waste it mah, lucky she want, else I gotto sell it in Yahoo and sure suffer a loss) and I found a similar one this time its length is longer... hehe...

Next went to Tinklebell first, but couldn't find a pair of shoes that I like, so went walking around, finally decided to buy at this shop called INK... but the shoe abit too big so I have to buy Padding and I did some cobbling work myself.... Actually was just to cut the sole padding to fit the shoe and glued them together...

I know my last entry on my Pubbing was too short, now a more (Very) detailed one k…

Arranged to meet Sean 9pm at Raffles Place Mrt then proceed to Boat Quay… but as I was on the way (Clementi stop), Sean smsed me say will slightly late, since I was already on my way and according to my calculations I would be on time…

Hmmm, how come nowadays is guys late one ah… Haha…

Then reach there waited for them lor, James was at Marina Square and he actually walked to Raffles Place… Haha… Then finally at 930pm, Sean appeared… he introduced 2 friends (Zach and Andy) to us (they were actually standing behind us but at that time we did not know them mah)

At first we went to this Pub called Cloud Nine (I think so lah, cos follow blindly) then last time they still have half bottle there, but unfortunately it has expired (the Pub only keep for 1month)… so they decided to look for other place cos they were back there for the half bottle and abit unhappy cos the expiry was so fast…

Then we walked around trying to find a Pub then can fit in our criteria… mustn’t have too little people or too much people, drinks cheap and got songs to sing… haha… After walking around for like nearly 10 minutes, we chose a Pub called QB near a road name Lorong Telok … After deciding on the Pub, I told kt where we are lor, cos he is joining us for awhile, kt, Joanna and Tommy joined us from 11 till around 1245am…

The 5 of us started playing the dice game “Bluff” lor… but you know lah, lucky I got watch SCV and learn this game else sure kena bullied by others… haha

After awhile another of Sean’s friend (Ching Cheng) joined us, think time was around 11+ bah, not so sure… then kt, Tommy, Sean and Ching Cheng played Big 2 (Dai Dee) then James, Joanna, Zach, Andy and me continued with the dice game “Bluff”…

In between games, I sang the song Ai Mei by Rainie Yang lor… and after that Sean and Zach also got sing songs… the songs sang were Jie Kou – Jay Zhou, Yuan Zou Gao Fei – Li Sheng Jie, Hua Xiang – Xu Shao Yang and Wo You Zui - Wu Ke Qun…

Sean said I do not sound like someone who is singing in hall for the 1st time… haha, I think this is my 3rd time only… cos first time was during a relative wedding (I was only 10 years old bah), another time was when I sang Top of the World with my brother at the Safra (Bt Merah)… haha… ages ago… plus I have experience in Choir, so maybe not that scary bah, somemore in Pub where will have people hear you sing… haha… all busy playing their own games…

Too bad my Dao Dai – Jolin and Joanna’s Yong Qi – Liang Jingru never came on leh… so my KTV gian somehow still there… haha…

After kt, Joanna and Tommy left, the 6 of us continued with “Bluff” but we only had 5 sets so I let the guys played (like that I can drink lesser mah)… then this time Sean became the “Public Enemy”… cos his friends all targeted him lor… and he lost like 5 games straight… so I told him if the next round he still lose I will help him drink… cos he looks like cannot liao… breathing and swallowing hard… well round 6 he did not lose but then round 7 he lost again… so I kept my promise I help him drink 1 time… then he tio suan say need girl to help him drink… at the end of the day, he was high again lor, just like last time at MOS but he told me this time around he got Merlion lor… the other time managed to control…

Then Zach went to answer phone call I think, then I took over… this time Sean was still losing…then finally he decided to quit the game and let Zach play… haha, kind of poor thing hor, Andy was the guy that keep targeting him and he actually bluff me a few times lor,

For example:
Zach (in front of him): 8 6s
Andy (in front of me): 9 6s
Me (I got 3 6s, so quite confident lah): 10 6s
James (behind me): decided to open up…

Then in the end, Andy only got 1 6 dice… haha, so like that usually will only have 9 6s… so I lose lor… lucky I did not pour a lot of Martell in my green tea... cos I clever don’t want to drink too much…

But there was a cup, Andy poured for me, wah seh, ½ cup Martell, ½ green tea (mixer)… then I drink one big mouth quickly add more green tea… else how to tahan the whole night without getting high at all leh…

Then there was this deaf lady selling soft toys and Sean bought 1 and asked me which one I like… haha, actually was eyeing at a cute piggy one but I just say anything… so he just took the first toy and it was Pooh… (too bad wasn’t Eyore, that’s my favourite character in that cartoon series, actually anything cute also good lah), so I have earned a New Pooh Bear for my collection… Haha… now it’s lying in my big pool of soft toys on my bed… no wonder that’s why I always got not enough space…

So we stayed there from 10+ pm till 2am lor… whole night only sang one song, unlike me hor but still okie lah, cos I was too engrossed in the “Bluff” game liao…

Then at 2am, we went next door to eat Prata… that moment, Joanna reach home liao, give me a call, asked whether James still around and have we gone home… she’s worried about me, so touched… haha, so I told her we are still having Prata and later will share cab with James lor…

Reached home time was nearly 3am and surprisingly my brother was already sleeping… haha, so early wor… started school different liao…

Then Sean smsed me whether have I reached home… and so zhun hor, cos I just stepped into my house only…

Then due to just ate Prata and drank Tea, kind of not sleepy… think I only fell into a deep sleep at about 6am cos I can see the sunlight when I was dozing off…

Sunday leh, rot at home… suppose to go hair cut with zj but she last minute got Client things to settle then I told her next time then cut lor… haha…

Whole day do nothing, just use computer, surf net, update things, check mail, chat… then arrange to meet a friend (already known for nearly 2 years but only met once…) to go KTV during the 2nd week of May… last time arranged to meet him liao, but I forgot about a appointment so have to put him aeroplane… hehe…this time around cannot liao… wait he angry, don’t friend me how…

Hmmm, nowadays really got to make the effort to know more friends liao, old friends are all busy with own things… can’t always rot at hm right… haha…

K lah, this entry very detailed le bah… haha…till the next update… too bad never take photos...

Okie, yesterday was fun... Since I do not usually go Pubbing so it was a nice experience... We went to a Pub named QB... Service and drinks was not bad...

We played the game "Bluff" the whole night... Haha, okie, I did lose a few times, all because of the guy on my right bullied me...

I did managed to sing one song last night, Ai Mei - Rainie Yang... The next song (Dao Dai - Jolin) that I submit did not appear... Then around 2am, we went for Prata next door... Okok only, somemore I ordered Cheese Egg and the egg wasn't throughly cooked...

But overall I had a nice night out... Cos I get to see the person I wanted to see lah... Lalala....

Those who know will know... those who dunno then too bad... I shall not reveal too much things... It's still early to say things also, now is like making more friends only...

And best thing was I actually earn a Pooh Bear back... I was just thinking to myself that my "Collection" of soft toy seems to have stopped... for those who dunno, I love soft toys and I would buy them once in awhile for myself, cos no one give me mah... haha...

K lah, hopefully there will be another outing like that again soon... v(^-^)v

Remember last time I mentioned about a Malay guy who cut my queue?

Okie, today he got scolded by the Bus uncle, apparently he did not only cut my queue, but a lot times before hence the uncle already know his pattern…

Both of them arguing and the Malay guy actually have the nerve to scold the uncle "Idiot" and point finger at the Bus Uncle… OMG, that’s rude lor, at first I thought it must be that the Malay guy is embarrassed that the uncle say him in front of so many people that’s why argue back, but to argue and rebuke the uncle back is kind of rude when you know you are in the wrong… The Uncle also not scared of him, slap the Malay guy's hand away (cos pointing at him mah) and in the end the Uncle don't want to quarrel with him liao (at least quarrel for 1 minute, with another bus waiting behind) so the Uncle asked him to move in and then he drives off...

I felt like going up to the uncle and make known my gratitude lor, I know next time if this Malay guy ever cut my queue again, I shall scold him… Even if he dares to argue back I would also scold him, else it won’t be fair to those people queuing behind right…

Since you are already at the Interchange it make no sense if you don’t want to queue up and want to cut queue… It would be a different case if you were at the bus stop and flagged down the bus… but would it be great if there are also queuing up at the bus stops.

If you watched HK drama you would understand what I’m trying to say, like those people queuing up for the mini bus and if there are no more seats they have to wait for the next bus… but guess have to depend on the manners of the countrymen bah… Remember last time our ex-PM Goh CK would like to say Gracious Society, seems like improving but there are still some reluctant to learn / to improve bah...

Well, no offences to any race, but just happens that this particular person involved is a Malay…

Well, I did mentioned that I met up kt, Joanna, Fiona, Keira and one of (F&K’s) friend who happened to be exactly 3 years younger than me… His birth date is the same as mine, so qiao and he’s staying 1 bus stop distance from my house, haha…

Ok, what I wanted to grumble is that day, we were talking about Cockroaches lah, then Sunday, I encountered something gross with regards to the Longest Living Creature On Earth :: Cockroaches ::

A cockroach actually ran across my feet… I was standing in front of a drink stall waiting to order then I felt something ticklish at my feet, at first I thought it was some paper or plastic bags flying around and got entwined around my feet, so I decided to find out what is actually the “thing”… As I looked down and I saw a cockroach scurried away and it wasn’t small baby cockroach but an adult one that is around 5cm long lor…

Maybe it’s just the cockroach revenging on me, I have killed too many at home before and on Saturday there was one just outside my house gate and I wanted to maybe try stomp on it to let it reborn into something else, simple words I wanted it to go to Heaven lah; but I realised it was a FLYING cockroach, I decided to give up my idea of helping it go to Paradise early…

Yes, I admit that I’m a coward when encountered with FLYING cockroaches, but one thing I’m proud of is, I’m definitely BRAVER than my BIG SIZE Brother lor, Haha…he will jump and run away whenever he sees a cockroach...

I hate it when people make used me as an excuse… well, someone just did it and it sort of pissed me off…

It might have meant as a white lie to protect his backside but it does mean that I become a scapegoat…

Well it might sound as a trivial thing to many but it’s my reputation k, sounds as though that I’m not working…

Mr. X called around 3 o’clock and asked me whether did Mr. Z (that someone) emailed over the files to him… Because Mr. Z said that the Secretary (that’s me) was out for lunch and will send it later… (Our Lunchtime is 1-2pm).

So I asked him, when did Mr. Z told him that, Mr. X said was slightly before our Lunchtime, that’s about 12+…

And once I fully understand the scenario, it appears that I was being used as a scapegoat again… Last time the PM thing already made me unhappy lor, now Mr. Z has done it again, last time I thought that the PM has bad manners, but seems like could be Mr. Z did promise him but then nv do so push the blame to me… So now to others, I must be someone who doesn’t work efficiently lor, but I have always finish my things on time and seldom late on deadlines k…

What makes me upset is that, the fact is he hasn’t finish the work and make used of me as an excuse...

Haiz, last year my brother watched the Wan Quan Yu Le, then the Wei Wei An (think that’s her name), a Horoscope Expert said that Scorpios must wear a silver bracelet on their right hand to ward of Xiao Ren at Work… Seems like very true lor, and heng I have been wearing the silver bracelet for many many months… Maybe it’s protecting me against those Xiao Ren… Haha, sounds superstitious hor, but no harm believing it bah…

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

Seems like so unlike me... Haha...

Usually when I take cabs, I usually would asked the Uncle to keep the change unless is big amount lah, anything around 50cents I would let them earned the extra.

Just now, I took a Cab from West Mall and reached my house it cost $4.50 so I gave the Uncle a $5 note and ask him to keep the change, instead he wanted to return me the 50cents, I insisted then he gave in and accepted it...

For so many years, this is the 2nd Uncle that insisted in returning me my change... Kind of hard to find hor... My first encounter was during my Poly Days, there was one day that I was late for class, so decided to try my luck see can get a Cab fast and make it for my lecture asap...

Finally after waiting for 10min (it was the morning peak hours lor, considered very lucky liao), I boarded a Cab and it was an Uncle in his late fifties bah... Finally after 20mins on the road, managed to reach the Poly and the fare was $11 or $13 (Couldn't remember the exact fare) so I gave the Uncle either at $12 or $14 and there was a balance of $1, as I was in a hurry I told the Uncle to keep the change, instead he forbid it... Say I'm a student, cannot take extra from me...

Haha, at that moment I was kind of speechless, one hand I was already late and got to rush off then the Uncle was taking some time to return me the change... Haha, another hand appreciate the Uncle for being so understanding...

Seems like few years later, I have found another one... Haha, usually they will just say Thank You and keep the change... I always treat as though treating them for a cup of coffee etc...

Nevertheless, not all Cab Uncles are scheming... Haha...

Ps: btw for those who do not know... My Dad and 2 uncles are Cab Drivers... and I respected them, it is not easy being on the road for such long hours...

Been wanting to go shopping recently, but ended up at home instead... Haha, I do not know why but sometimes I might have planned to go somewhere, but when the day comes, I might have a change of mind, I think I’m too fickle-minded le, just like a Cat... I have always prefer Cats to Dogs anyway... But not to the extend of having a Pet Cat at home lah, one thing my mom is allergic to animals fur and I believe I do not have the kind of responsibility to take care of another being...

Responsibility is a heavy duty to me lor, because I’m ficker-minded, can’t make up my mind many times hence if I’m tied down with a Pet then jialat liao... another thing is I don’t even earn enough to give myself a good life, how to give good food to the Pet, better don’t bah...

Why do I say I have character like a cat? It is because, I would like to have attention at times, but once I’m bored, I just hope to laze around... I would never go sought for attention (Dogs like to do catch the attention of the Owners) and when I didn’t attention will come to me... Haha, in another words, I like being pampered for, but only up to an extend that I can tolerate then please leave me alone... Haha, when I’m looking for you then you can come pampered me again, now able to understand le bah??

Okie bah, enough of the rubbish liao, btw last time I wrote about a Cat at my house downstairs right, nowadays his 地盘 is being taken up by another Cat... Haha, so kelian lor, now got to share with the other Cat le...

Haha, okie lah, recently seems like writing a lot of nonsense hor, not much high-quality entries... Well, because not many activities recently also... till then please tolerate with my gibberish writings bah... This Saturday I shall make an effort to have Mai Dang Dang (MacD) breakfast, since last week I put my brother aeroplane due me tired, wanna sleep longer… Haha

我知道你最近心情低落。

不要因为那糊涂又不会欣赏你的上司让你难过，有一天他会后悔那么样对你。办公室里总会有一些让人不喜欢的人，他一定就是其中之一。

而对于友情呢，我很久以前就明白，没有人可以做一辈子的朋友。会在每个不同生活阶段认识不同的人，人也是会变。有些会改变很多，有的只是小改变。如果你已经将意见都说了，它们还是不能接受，那你也尽力了，接下来就让它们决定吧。

你说还会有更多会让你不开心的事，现在只是在等待它们发生。那你就祈祷吧，可能那是对你的考验，让你坚强，明白更多事，那么才能做一个更高尚的人。

说了那么多，真的希望你会懂，能够早日放声大笑。

Hehe, I say wanna update more but I was kind of busy at work to sit down and really update lor, then at home I’m lazy cos watching TV… when finish the show, I’m sort of tired wanna sleep le…

Eh, today I saw ZJ’s ex… but being the usual me, I just act nonchalant cos I dunno whether he know me anot so best case is to act blur…

If he smile at me then maybe I’ll acknowledge him bah, somemore don’t really know him, I’m only on good terms with KT’s gfs (Current and the previous ex), with the exception of 1 of his ex, think considered 2nd gf bah… dunno why, seems to dislike me a lot, well, that’s History le, better don’t rake up anyway… haha

Oh ya, I saw my brother entry then I remember about my bad experience at CAFÉ CARTEL AT BBP (BUKIT PANJANG PLAZA)…

It wasn’t the first time this has happened lor, haiz, I’m not that small till they can see me bah, somemore I was there before the Uncle, yet she served him first, and the Uncle in the end also quite Pek Chek, cos ordered the Cakes liao, but no one packing it for him…

As for my case was, the Cashier totally ignored me lor… as though I’m standing there for fun… then got 2 other waiters came along and make payment… so I sit down at the seat right in front of the cashier, then after the 2nd waiter is gone, a 3rd waiter came along wanting to make payment, I used my unhappy tone and said, “Can I order?” The cashier immediately sense I buay song, still dare to say, “Sure.” Then took down my order… when she gave me a pen for me to sign (cos using Debit Card) I purposely used another pen but also suay the pen no ink, hence got to use the pen she’s holding… But I have good words for the person packing the takeaways; he’s fast and efficient though…

Hehe, seems like my patience level is going down wor… but I don’t care lah, even if in-house waiter also got to queue to make payment (for the dining in customers), can anyhow cut my queue meh… She served the Uncle first, I’m okie, cos I was on the phone also, asking my mom whether she wants Cake… haha…

I must learn to control bah, cannot always get irritated over this kind of matter…

Today is already Monday, not having the best of my moods le, well I did sleep enough but sometimes the dreadful Blues just appear out of nowhere and will keep on bugging me till my Knock Off time… Haha…

Okie, I have deviated from my topic again…

Just now lunch time, this Uncle was clearing our table after our meal, then he actually barked at me wor. He was using a bucket to collect the dishes and the bucket hit my thigh, yet he still don’t know say what (I couldn’t make out his words anyway) and so I turned at look at him, he still STARED at me wor…

I just stared back and walk away lah, haiz I know I shouldn’t get annoyed over this matter, but sometimes just don’t understand lor, why the other uncle so friendly can smile and quite helpful, this one so grouchy and it wasn’t my fault…

Don’t care lah, not that I look down on him, everyone got their jobs to do what, if everyone is University Graduate, then who is going to do the lesser wages jobs…

I’m trying my best to stay as happy as I can le… Monday is a really hard day to many…

Oh ya, yesterday was the first time I actually watched the Campus Superstar… The overall Champion wasn’t that bad yesterday, I like his singing although the runner up for the Guys’ section has a more suitable outlook for a Superstar… The Girls’ section was more disappointed lah, cos I prefer the runner up, more special voice, but all depends on people’s voting lor… haha… next week starting Super Band, haiz, too many these type of programs also very get sick of it one wor, Mediacorp better be careful, later the viewership getting worse wor...

Actually still got many things to update, but I haven got the time now, so maybe tml or tonight, depends on my mood lah… K lah, another 4+ hours to tahan, then can go home and tonight can watch my SNTGD lor… YEAH!!