17.8.05
I need a holiday...
Haiz, feeling quite drained recently... Both Phyiscally and Mentally... Quite tired... I need a break, a holiday... somewhere cheap and away from home...
My sister recently was asking about some accommodation at Campus, but i told her they are only available to Staff not Students.. Been wondering why she's asking ... only last week after our conversation i realised why...
Me: I very tired of always helping mom go buy 4D, she can go herself, but just lazy, her leg is now so much better, should go out and walk more... but always giving excuses that she gotto change outfit, wear her shoes.. (but who doesn't)
Sis: Yar, that's why i'm thinking of moving out...
!?!?!? ..... If that's the main reason why she wanna move out, i'm disappointed with her... it's just like shrinking her responsibility... that means leave everything to me ?!?! Another reason is she might be transferring to the East side and also studying at East side, travelling take a long time.. haiz, I really dun understand her anymore....
Last time, when i'm more outgoing, they complain, say i always go out, but who stay young?? It's only now that i can really go out and enjoy... now after so much nagging, i just stay home more often and what do i get, drained out... I dun want to live a life like that till old... it would be so meaningless... for example, i go chalet on sat, told them be back on sun... they would keep calling asking what time i would be back, told them dun cook my dinner lah... then when i reach home, maybe around 10pm or latest before 12mn, my mom will give me black face... i'm not asking for alot, but i just dun understand....
i'm already a very obedient daughter in other ppl's eye, but why are their expectations just so high... I dun usually go out on weekdays, go home after work and when i called to say i'm out on Friday night, my sis or mom would say, i already expected it in a sarcastic tone, or i have no appointments so go home, they would say sorely also, wah today so guai never go out... HAIZ.... I dun wish to sound so whiny.... but but but .... ..... ......
:( ¶ 17.8.05
My sister recently was asking about some accommodation at Campus, but i told her they are only available to Staff not Students.. Been wondering why she's asking ... only last week after our conversation i realised why...
Me: I very tired of always helping mom go buy 4D, she can go herself, but just lazy, her leg is now so much better, should go out and walk more... but always giving excuses that she gotto change outfit, wear her shoes.. (but who doesn't)
Sis: Yar, that's why i'm thinking of moving out...
!?!?!? ..... If that's the main reason why she wanna move out, i'm disappointed with her... it's just like shrinking her responsibility... that means leave everything to me ?!?! Another reason is she might be transferring to the East side and also studying at East side, travelling take a long time.. haiz, I really dun understand her anymore....
Last time, when i'm more outgoing, they complain, say i always go out, but who stay young?? It's only now that i can really go out and enjoy... now after so much nagging, i just stay home more often and what do i get, drained out... I dun want to live a life like that till old... it would be so meaningless... for example, i go chalet on sat, told them be back on sun... they would keep calling asking what time i would be back, told them dun cook my dinner lah... then when i reach home, maybe around 10pm or latest before 12mn, my mom will give me black face... i'm not asking for alot, but i just dun understand....
i'm already a very obedient daughter in other ppl's eye, but why are their expectations just so high... I dun usually go out on weekdays, go home after work and when i called to say i'm out on Friday night, my sis or mom would say, i already expected it in a sarcastic tone, or i have no appointments so go home, they would say sorely also, wah today so guai never go out... HAIZ.... I dun wish to sound so whiny.... but but but .... ..... ......
:( ¶ 17.8.05
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