祈祷 by 李岗霖
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*忽远又忽近灰色的天飘着雨
你是否还在等待午夜场陪着孤单
擦干又湿透哭红的眼吹着风
掏空花朵的瓶口泪水灌溉了寂寞
故事将慢慢被带过在电影散场楼梯口
秋天树叶悄悄在凋落一片又一片回不去的承诺 woo *
#无能为力祈祷着再次将你拥入怀中
手指冰冷的温度无情命运任性的捉弄
无能为力祈祷着你能感觉我的温柔
用尽力气狠狠的把你看够舍不得放手#
爱不够
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爱不够
剧情已失控承诺已失踪对不起你我要先走
闪亮的星空温暖的微风是我的问候 woo
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我还爱不够 oh woo oh~~ ¶ 31.12.05 0 comments
Hey have been listening to this new song by S.H.E check out the lyrics... Quite a nice song...
Okie, also duno what to update today... sort of brain empty at the moment.. I'll be back in Year 2006...
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!
¶ 31.12.05 1 comments
Hehe, now time is 2.12am when i writing this post...
I just came back from Swissôtel Stamford - New Asia Bar that is at the 71th / 72th storey of the Hotel... Details if you need them:- 2 Stamford Road, Level 71 / 72 Phone: 6431 5672
Since it's at Level 71 you can imagine the nice view and there are alot of Ang Mohs... I saw one which i find shuai... (still drooling.... hiak hiak)
Then during our last dance there, my friend push me then i dance with an ang moh uncle lor.. haha, his dancing very cute one, so i dance with him for one song.. after that i quickly turn back dance with my friends, then it's time to go le, cos they close at 1am, so ard 1245am they turn on the lights le... not a bad place to chill out and the songs they play are quite nice...
I'm thinking of going to chiong on Saturday to celebrate New Year then also my last weekend of enjoyment before my working life starts again.. starting work on Tuesday 03 Jan 2006 so must enjoy whenever i can now... hopefully i can keep myself busy and forget abt the past ... have fun, enjoy myself is the most important thing now...
Night.. .. ..
¶ 29.12.05 0 comments
Haiz, and it's good to keep myself busy yar... best way to forget...
Going out tml with my friends for dinner and drinks.. (going to Drown my Sorrows liao, wahaha.. if u believe it lah!)
I think I'll be okie soon, think won't meet them often also.. so things will be fine and back to normal, do not want to ruin my happy days... so I'll enjoy my holidays...
Have fun too... :) ¶ 27.12.05 0 comments
The hurting truth is out, and why do I have to find it out on Christmas eve.. What a way to "celebrate" my Christmas.. I thought I would be fine seeing them together, I do not feel jealous, but pain.. I should be happy for them, but why can't I..
I guess, I do not want people (others) to pity me, because he doesn't belong to him (ever) and I'm tired of repeating the cycle..
From the start I do not wish that he would find out how I feel, because I'm not very sure of my own feelings, but things drag on, it has been 5 years.. Now that they are together, I can only feel the hurt, the pain, the sadness..
During the time that I was so unsure of my feelings, I do not feel anything when he mention his ex-gfs / gf.. But every time when I feel it's right, someone / he would tell me something that depress me.. 5 years is such a long time, I'm tired of being there.. tired of being the spare.. Although he has no obligation towards me, but nevertheless I could feel the betraying..
No matter how hard it takes now, I will move on, wish them well..
What worse could still happen?? After realizing the guy you like over the years fell in love with your best friend..
Wish me all the best.. I need plenty..
(T_T) ¶ 25.12.05 0 comments
Will update with the images soon... :)
Hehe, then proceed to watch a movie at 845pm… It’s a show that I say I wanna watch and thought might not have a chance to watch lah, because most friends that I talk to about this show, give me the same expression, “Nice meh!”; sianED…
Guess Guess Guess leh… It's a story about a Tragic Story of a Beauty and a Beast...
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:: KING KONG ::
Haha, don’t think people would expect me to watch this right.. haha, actually is a remake version mah, and I really like the director (same as LOTR, Peter Jackson), because basically I don’t know who are the actor/s in the show.. Although it does not have a good ending, but It has some humour in it… My tears were brimming at the edges of my eyes at the last part where King Kong is dying… very (x10) sad ah.. Movie graphics is also nice… I shall buy the VCD when it’s out.. Hehe!!
-- :: Synopsis of the King Kong the Movie :: --
It is 1933, and vaudeville actress Ann Darrow (Oscar nominee for 21 Grams, Naomi Watts) has found herself -- like so many other New Yorkers during the Great Depression -- without the means to earn a living. Unwilling to compromise and allow herself to sink into a career in burlesque, she considers her limited options while aimlessly wandering the streets of Manhattan. When her hunger drives her to unsuccessfully try to steal an apple from a fruit vendor’s stall, she is rescued -- literally -- by filmmaker and multiple hyphenate Carl Denham (Jack Black of The School of Rock).
It seems that the entrepreneur-raconteur-adventurer is no stranger to theft, having that day lifted the only existing print of his most recent and unfinished film from under his studio executives’ noses when they threatened to pull his completion funds. Carl has until the end of the day to get his crew onboard the Singapore-bound tramp steamer, the S.S. Venture, in hopes of completing his travelogue/action film. With that, the showman is certain he will finally achieve the personal greatness he knows awaits him around the corner…and although the crew believe that corner to be Singapore, Denham actually hopes to find and capture on film the mysterious place of legend: Skull Island.
Unfortunately for Carl, his headlining actress has pulled out of his project, but his search for a size-four leading lady (the costumes have all been made) has, fatefully, led him to Ann. The struggling actress is reluctant to sign on with Denham, until she learns that the up-and-coming, socially relevant playwright Jack Driscoll (Oscar winner for The Pianist, Adrien Brody) is penning the screenplay -- the fees his friend Carl pays for potboiling adventure are a welcome supplement to Driscoll’s nominal income from his stage plays.
With his newly discovered star and coerced screenwriter reluctantly onboard, Denham’s “moving picture ship” heads out of New York Harbor ... and toward a destiny that none aboard could possibly foresee.
Joining Watts, Black and Brody is an accomplished ensemble cast from around the globe. German star Thomas Kretschmann (U-571) portrays Captain Englehorn, commander of the Venture, who allows Denham and his ever-increasing bribes to persuade him to endanger the lives of his crew by searching for Skull Island. Colin Hanks (Orange County) is Preston, Denham’s put-upon assistant and unwitting moral compass, who attempts to keep his boss in check and the production from spiraling out of control. Young actor Jamie Bell (Billy Elliot) plays Jimmy, the youngest crew member, whose experiences onboard the Venture prove more fantastical than any old salt’s seafaring yarn. Evan Parke lends his talents to the role of first mate Hayes, keeping a watchful eye on young Jimmy and serving as Englehorn’s conscience. Kyle Chandler takes on the character of Bruce Baxter, a “B”-movie-level leading man cast opposite Ann Darrow in Denham’s adventure movie. Andy Serkis (who performed the role of the CGI character Gollum in The Lord of the Rings trilogy) provides both on-set performance reference and motion-capture performance for the “Eighth Wonder of the World”…the title character of King Kong; he also appears onscreen as the eccentric sailor in charge of the Venture’s galley, Lumpy the Cook.
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(check out the website if you want, it is http://www.kingkongmovie.com/ ) the website is done quite nicely…
But during the movie hor, don’t why people still can’t remember to switch off their HP, so loud somemore, still can chat in the movie, very irritating lor… and sitting in the row in front of us is a family, the children keep going to the toilet, very annoying to keep seeing heads moving across the screen you know… then the parents keeping carrying / passing this little kid around, the mother also sit so straight, people short behind can’t see the screen, haha…
The row behind me leh, his legs like super long (cos it’s very spacious lor) or he must be in a practically sleeping position in his seat… his legs keep kicking against my chair lor, got impulse to turn and look into his eyes then say could you stop kicking my chair, you want to rest your legs can but don’t move around. Haha, of course I never say that lah, the keep smelling some weird smell, hard to describe, sour smell, abit of mixture of perspiration plus something else, haha, lucky is only light smell, imagine it to be super pungent think I will want to change seats ah… think basic courtesy in the movies are still lacking in some people habits, not all are like that but just a few black sheep is enough to dampen your mood… I just keep concentrating on the movie, refusing to acknowledge the irritating person behind I know I would feel better so I just heck care!!
Okok, got to go back to work le, so watch it if you don’t mind sad ending…
Hmmm, recently I got to know a poly classmate’s friend through Friendster. Then we started messaging in Friendster then MSN then SMSes…
He is not a bad person to chat with, not forceful unlike some others that I have known earlier, although he keep asking me to call and chit chat with him on the phone, I can’t find the time to call. Have been quite busy with work these 2 months, usually year end is like that lor, a lot of things have clear up and finish before the year end break comes…
Yup, I’ll be having my year end break with my last day at work on the Friday, 23 December 2005 and starting work again on Tuesday, 04 January 2006… Although not a very long break but still good lah, can sleep more, spend time with family (been too outgoing recently le) and also not forgetting my friends lah…
Back to this new friend (lets named him Mr. X), think is facing some relationship problems now…He told me his girlfriend of 9 years suddenly break up with him without any reasons and just disappear from his life completely. Even moving house I think, because he says wants to find out her address and look at her from far. Of course being the kpo me, I told him harshly, “What good will it do, if you see her, you would feel any better?”
Actually, it has already been 7-8months since their break-up and he said he lose a lot of weight, his waistline from 38” dropped to 31”… shocking right, he is still undergoing counselling accordingly to him lah… I have not met him yet, so can’t decide whether these are true or not…
Actually abit apprehensive about meeting strangers… but weird thing is last July, I met up with a guy (Desmond) and now we still chit chat on phone and SMSes, cos I find him very sincere and so coincident that he was also facing relationship problems then. Now still single, keeping asking me to intro him girls… haha, now still waiting for his confirmation on when then can meet for a belated birthday dinner, and a long awaited KTV Session he promised since last year bah… haha, actually din meet up with him since last July, although he saw me once at a Bus stop (he was inside a bus that stopped at the Bus stop).
Mr. X recently met up with our mutual friend (W) and W praise me wor… he said I was the best among the 5 gals in class; most like gal and very quiet person; so now Mr. X is anxious to meet me leh, haha, did not expect W to praise me leh, cos not on very familiar terms with him also, those in our cliché will know the reason lah… if you wanna know why, asked me next time when I’m out with you lah, or private email me k… I’ll answer there, can’t talk bad about people nowadays, too dangerous… still thinking whether to meet him a not, workload so heavy recently, then meeting friends, catching up with many these days…
Today still having dinner with my year 3 classmates (although only 2 but good terms with them during those days) and haven see him for many years… that Koon San suppose to come to my birthday in 2002 but I think he did not come because fell sick (down with fever bah) so hard to meet them also… haha… see if today can take some photographs lah, then upload it… haha…
Suddenly I realised how come these days I have been the only one that is updating my events and thoughts, while others have none (especially EJ, when are you going to UPDATE!!) or with photographs but no text… think you guys are more busy than me ya… I’m busy working and enjoying but you all are Working only… hehe… 2457 got to meet up for Christmas ya… hmmm, presents presents presents… what to buy!! What to buy!! Christmas is near yet I haven figure out the presents…
Ciao!!
3 months later, December 2005; he told me that he had broken up with her.
I have started to sense things are getting weird because they have been meeting up lesser and often I have been there during their dates. It seems that both are busy with their works and communication between them got lesser. Problems starts to appear, he found that he has develop some feelings for a colleague / friend.
He do not wish to let her found out the third party herself, do not wish to cheat her anymore so he told her the truth and asked for a breakup. He has no idea whether to continue with the colleague too, he has totally drained himself up thinking over this matter for the past 2 weeks.
At first I was so angry with him, he himself has been through a relationship where he was a victim of a third party intruding into his 4 years relationship with his sec school sweetheart. But now he himself got into a love triangular. Haiz !! Blow after blow… seems like relationships nowadays are so unstable.
Will I be able to find the right man who will appear at the right time… I hope so, I’ve knew a right man before but there will never be a right time for us anyway…
To have someone who loves you more, or to have someone whom you love more is better. I have no definite answer. Just deal with whom that comes along in time…
Basically I also quite surprised that it’s James (the No Plans Guy) that asked us out, haha, cos always asked him any plans, he would say, No plans / No plans yet… haha, so surprisingly he actually asked us go Sentosa… went to Siloso Beach, not a lot of people around… the guys went ahead to swim while I jagar* the bags / things.
*jagar means take care, look after
I suntan with my back leaning against a Coconut Tree and sea breeze at my face… I tanned for around 30mins and I’ve already darken le, so fast hor… then we played beach soccer, basketball lor… after that I went for a dip (really a dip, just soaked wet only) then lay on the sand to continue the tanning…
We left Sentosa in the evening, actually wanted to go JB for seafood, but James did not bring Passport despite Kelvin sending a sms to say might be going to JB… haha, so we went to Marina South to eat BBQ Steamboat lor…
Then last week, my face felt so dry despite putting on so much moisturizer so no choice, went without Make-up for 3 days, just basic Mascara and some blush…
Last Friday, went to work as usual then at night, I’m off to Chalet (Aranda Country Club at Pasir Ris, next to Downtown East) with my Family (maternal side) and thought that I can go Wild Wild Wet, but this chalet, I have not Swim, have not Cycle, have not went for any Theme Parks… haha, just chit chat in the room, napping and having the usual BBQ…
Talking about BBQ, we had our BBQ on Saturday night and could not locate our pit at first, the pit number was supposed to be the same as our room number, then one of my cousin finally located the pit and there are actually ppl already using it, so I went up to check whether is it really our pit.
I stood behind the ppl there and glance at the pit number, then I said, “Excuse Me, is this 2312 (pit number)?”
The boys and girls (think they are JC Students bah) started to look a little flustered, then I continue, “I believe this is my pit.”
Then a girl said, “Hmmm, (asked her friend) Douglas did book right, (looking at me, she said) I don’t know…”
So I replied, “Ok, the pit number is supposed to be your room number and this is ours.”
“Then can you take our pit, (they have already started the fire and already BBQing), it’s 2323” she asked.
I thought since she say so nicely, then it’s not far from our pit, so I agreed and proceed for our BBQing, don’t want to waste time also… haha, actually all the conversation above doesn’t sound fierce or what, but I was standing there alone, while my cousins, sister all standing at another pit location… I was the shortest there but I was also the loudest (because I’m right mah)
Then we BBQ from I think 6+ till around 11 then at night watch the Star Awards Re-Run… hmmm, Zoe Tay really kinda of 38 lor… cannot tahan her especially she keep saying the Piao Liang Mama… I know she wants to let ppl know she is very blissful now, but can u imagine those watching TV and is a very successful person, loves babies but yet can’t have any, or just a normal person who wants to have babies yet can’t?? I don’t hate Zoe but please don’t be too Drama at times (I heard on radio, they called her Drama Mama) and now she’s voted the Turn-off of the year by The New Paper… hope she learn something lor…
(saw this on Aunty's Blog, so try it out, hehe, how true?? Let's see!!)
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. Haha, I can only agree on the "I don’t like conflict" part.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Erm, yar not necessary good looking but at least must be good looking in my eyes lah, as Qing Ren Yan Li Chu Xi Shi !! (Beauty in the Eye of the Beholder, Is it correct??)
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
Very True!! Don't rush me or be forceful, that is the ultimate No No!!
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
This ah, I don't know le... ;p
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
My Job is not unusual...
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
Haha, this is true, becoming a full time Tai Tai is my dream and ambition... If can't then regular steady job would be the best!!
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
Yup, absolutely true, failure is scary!!
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Ohhhh, very accurate!!
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Hmmm, sounds profound!! But I can actually think of something that I have been trying to solve for ages... I think it's almost there... hopefully ! Because recently we meet up and I'm feeling better despite seeing the hurting scenes... Jiayou !!
Hmmm, i use to use beArgAl in IRC last time, then u know lah, as long it's a girl's nick private messages starts flooding... Someone even try to cyber-seduce me... haha... but i has been a long time since i "stepped" back into a IRC Channel / Chatroom... think Outgrow it le... no longer interested to play along le...
Got too irritate by the private messages then i change my nick to a more Manly one.. thus i came up with ::: SALT ::: But why did i think of this nick... hmmm can't really remember... maybe it's an inspiration from other's nick... haha... after i start using this, ppl started calling me k k salt (that means fake and stingy (kiam)) hehe... then ppl asking me have i found my Pepper or where is my Pepper lah...
I have been using this nick for a long time, so last year when Dor asked me to start a Blog, my first was peppernsalt but the address was already use... second was saltnpepper also been used... so i no choice, use saltvon... which stands for salt (my online nick) and von (my baby name, haha...)
thus saltvon.blogspot.com has gotten started... sometimes dunno what to write but will continue to keep it cos this is one way to let friends know about my recent happenings and theirs also...
Oh ya, later in the evening going to meet kt and fiona.... Dinner and some shopping... haha, recently alot of outings ah... next week meeting poly friends for dinner and also maybe a friend whom i know online last year... long time nv see him le altho still got contact thru msn or phone... wonder how long is he hair... keep telling me it's long but nv show me pic... haha... k lah, enjoy the WEEKEND!! It's coming in another 7 hours... YEAH!! ¶ 2.12.05 0 comments
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