Sat and Sun (weekends) ....... Did not blog for the past few days, cos pc crash, still waiting for my friend to be free then can fix.. No choice asking for favour must wait awhile lor..

I suddenly realised i'm going to be busy for the next 3 weekends...

28 Aug (Sat) - Morning, accompany my mom to SGH for her check up. Afternoon, go gocery shopping for the praying session tml (14th day of 7th month). Evening, don't know will be meeting my friends anot, found out something serious happen to my best friend, i guess, i'll be worried about the outcome.. haiz...

29 Aug (Sun) - Morning, start the praying session. Afternoon, going to my Uncle's house for another praying session (pay respects to my later Grandfather)

4 Sep (Sat) - Spring cleaning the whole day, cos relatives coming on Mon 6 Sep (No choice, don't clean, dad will have black face, haha...)

5 Sep (Sun) - Going to my Mom's Cousin (we call her Auntie Pauline) babies (Twins) full month celebration, having a buffet, but i still don't know where...

12 Sep (Sun) - My sec school malay classmate having her engagement in the afternoon, so she wants me to be there, invited me liao, so must give face go... haha...


To conclude, why so busy for the next few weekends, that i have no time for myself.. haiyo... can't relax... nvm, can only look forward to Fridays.. where i can go shopping or dinner after work.. haha..
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  My PC Crash le.... My PC crash liao.. sian.. lucky managed to save our folders and songs before it crash.. sat was still using it.. then dunno why sun can't load it liao.. then use recovery CD to save it but no use.. certified in coma in the evening.. haha.. now must wait for DOC (my friend) to help me cure IT... haha..

So nowadays won't see me online unless you are using MSN and in the morning somemore, cos at work lah..

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  I'm tired... Relationship between humans is really draining me off... I'm really tired...

Between Family, Friends, etc... It's really hard to figure out the other party... why can't ppl speak their mind out...

I guess i need a rest from this... GIVE ME A BREAK !! Look at my dark rings... I may think too much, but some words spoken cannot be taken back... And in the end the hurt is still there....


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  7th Lunar Month Ystday was the 1st day of the 7th lunar month, and as usual gotto go downstairs pray and "burn" joss paper... But this year very "SPECIAL" cos i do it alone.. Also duno the way i did was correct or not.. haha, my mom not very mobil to go downstairs, then sister working Afternoon Shift, brother go Tuition, Father busy at Temple.. haha.. so i'm the only person to go...

When i was downstairs, saw so many neighbours.. actually quite paiseh.. all Uncles , Aunties.. even there are youngsters also accompanied by parents.. i feel so out of place...

Haha, guess the Uncles and Aunties also find it weird why is daughter praying instead..
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  Misunderstanding... I have read the email on the misunderstanding.. wah, really shed tears leh.. somemore in office, haha.. can't control the tears ah.. suddenly my tears just fall, then scare other colleagues see.. then quickly take tissue and wipe..

But the story is really touching, dun care is it real or fake, it's true that misunderstandings must be clear asap, or else the hurt it caused would be very hard to be resolve.. Like i still feel the pain and anger i had when i was slapped by a FRIEND in Pri 5.. Till today, i still remember her even though we din contact since graduated from Pri School.. I even sat behind her in bus before and dun even bother to call her.. Maybe others might think it's so long ago, but can you imagine being slapped by someone you call Friend, that's the hurting part.. And she din bother to explain why.. she did apologise, but i guess i'm too petty and i can't really forgive her..

Time heals, yes, but i haven let go...
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  Am i giving excuses... I realised i wanted to do so many things but din put my heart into them.. but sometimes money is an issue..

I wanted to do an online shopping website, but my skills are limited.. (This was even before online shopping became famous) Thought of getting things from overseas and selling them here, esp from Thailand, cheaper place to go to in Asian and Fashion is about the same, but no money how to say go there and shop things back to sell leh.. haiz...

I guess, i can only go back to my wishful thinking and continue to dream.. haha..
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  Long weekend (No more holidays till Nov, Argh!!) A long weekend just past, and i realised i did nothing just nua at hm.. haha.. only went out on Sun to Orchard, as usual with my poly friends, walk ard and dinner then they went to play billard.. we went home quite early as one of them was involved in the NDP 2004.. haha, i even saw him on TV last night..

Billard

Luckily we still did some shopping (window shopping), but the shoes i wanted to buy dun have my size.. haiz, think the shop at wisma business too good le, now i can only try other outlets, but sort of lazy to go find... haha, hmmm, come to think of it, if there are no changes, i might have shop till siao at Taiwan and today then coming back to Singapore.. haha.. but nvm maybe it's fate that i can't go this August...

Eh, these 2 days, i have dreams and it's about a guy, but after i wakie, i can't remember his looks and what's the dream about... haha.. see tonight will continue the dream anot..

  ¶ 10.8.04 2 comments

  Am i a victim too? Ystday, my mom pass me the Chinese newspaper (not sure is sin ming or wanbao) and saying that there’s a incident here that’s similar to mine..

That day, I was on my way home, walking towards the bus stop at Pearl Centre (Chinatown), a couple (female ard 30+, male ard 40+) stopped me. I halted, as I thought they might be asking for directions, instead the man said to the lady, “I find it hard to ask, why don’t you ask.” The lady said they are from Beijing, and are here to find their business associates at a building here, but unfortunately he’s outstation at Taiwan. And they need to rush to Changi Airport, and have no cash, could I help them. I ask what transport you want to take, they replied Taxi, so I took a $10 from my wallet and give it to them. (as I thought, if I’m stuck overseas, I hope someone would help me too) The man then ask me for my contact number, say once his leader come will return me the money, I feel that there was no need for it, a small amount only.

At that moment, I wanted to walk off but the man stopped me again, this time his request made me suspect his intention. He asked is it possible for me to help them with food and accommodation for 1 night, I remember he saying he’s rushing to airport and now asking me for accommodation? I knew he’s not in need of any help but out to cheat my money. I told him, I don’t have any more cash with me, I unable to help. Instead he asked me to go withdraw from the ATM, haha, this request really confirm his bad intention.

I decline his request and told him, I really can’t help and I just walk off…

Well, the victim (from the papers) was more unlucky, he gave the Chinese Couple (from Shanghai as they claim) $10 then another $50.. my mom said I'm lucky as I’m the stingy type or else I sure help more.. haha, I think it’s true.. Do I look stupid and rich that he think he could cheat my money, haha..so friends, please be careful..

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  I should have treat them better There used to be a friend whom i know from IRC, we chatted from IRC to ICQ to SMS to Phone... but it all ended when i didn't appreciate him... He filled my days with messages and make my time on internet worthwhile... That time i was still using dial up and had limited time, he told me to use his, at no charge..

We was communicating for i guess at least 16hrs everyday, whenever he woke up i would received an good morning sms and this would continue till the end of day where we would be either chatting online or on phone.. once he even fell asleep while chatting.. haha, i didn't know what to do, i just hang up the phone..

But after a year of knowing each other, i changed.. i realised i had enough of life like that.. i dun have time for other things.. even if i'm out with my friends, i would still be smsing.. i became a sms addict.. haha.. I told myself i had to stop.. i began to ignore his sms, only replying let say at a ratio of 1:5.. his sms became lesser and now, even when i send him birthday wishes, i dun even get a thank you.. guess i deserve this treatment..

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During my poly attachment, i came to know this colleague, at first we din say much, but slowly he began to bully me.. haha.. There was this time where he pick me up and drove to work, i din think much about it also.. well there surely will be some teasing from colleagues.. i din let them bother me too.. but there was this time where i said i'm going to the saloon and he said wanna pick me after i'm done with my hair.. after i'm done, he was still busy and ask me to wait.. i felt there was something not right, i told him i can go home myself, which is only a 5mins ride away.. he called me that night, ask me out for coffee but it was 8pm at night.. haha, i managed to decline the coffee session..

After that, he would call me up quite often and it pissed me off at one time.. i told him, i dun have time for myself and he got the idea and left me alone since then.. i deleted off his number and now i occassionally would think of this colleague whenever i think of my attachment days..

guess i would have to improve on my relationship with ppl.. or else i'll be left with no friends sooner or later.. haha..
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