Boring Weekends... haiz, did not meet up with my friends for 2 weeks le.. so boring during my weekends.. can only spend my weekend watching TV lah, or surfing net..

sometimes I would do some chatting on net, but so hard to find someone who is really serious in knowing friends.. haiz.. maybe I just dun have much good luck..

sometime I do get to know some nice ppl, but just something is lacking.. haha, maybe I really hard to understand..

I guess the best friends u ever know is thru school days.. or someone who have been there for u when u really need them..

I must have been feeling too emotional today.. haha.. guess, I've been too cooped up....
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  28 July 2004 Hmmm, today had a not bad day.. I was listening to 5pm radio programme, then heard some ghost stories, found this 2 stories quite scary.. (maybe not totally correct, cos sometimes the radio turn too soft, can't hear carefully, I outline and conclude the stories.. haha)

1. This Platoon Sergeant (at Tekong) was doing night duty at this spot A, then from far he saw this new recruit (from their hairstyle can differentiate), he shouted for the recruit to come over, and scolded him for not obeying rules.. (recruits are supposed to stay in bunk after 10pm) then he recruit started asking the sergeant about life in Tekong... Then after the sergeant speaking about his life in Tekong.. The recruit gave a spooky answer... Wow, your army life now so good, unlike mine, or else I wouldn't have died....... Others at Spot B could hear the Sergeant giving distress call using his walkie talkie and when they rush over, they found him fainted on the spot...

2. This group of youngster (3guys 2gals) were at Chalet and wanted to go to Red House as they haven't been there before, wanted to take a look.. One guy drove, after they reach, the 2 in front felt something not right and wanted to leave but discover their car couldn't move altho the engine is running... They saw spirits surrounding their car.. (They claimed was size was around 2platoons full of spirits...) They sat their trembling and keep trying to move their car till around 30mins later they were able to leave...

Wah, that time I went for class chalet, my friend was also saying we go visit a Haunted House ( I couldn't Remember is which one) but majority say better not, later not suay but go liao become suay.. haha..

 
At night went for Dinner, ate some much.. haha.. We said wanna go home early but in the end also after midnight.. Guess we dun meet up so often so once in awhile is okie.. I'm thinking, at least 3 of us will be yawning the day through.. haha.. wanna thanks the WHO for paying ah.. hehe.. Cannot say name or else wait others say not fair.. Eh, ystday I've got camera leh, but forget to take pictures.. nvm, next time...

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  Sad Sunday Night For the 1st time in my 23 years, I saw my dad cry... Saw him feeling so unappreciated, so unwanted... It really hurt me so much... He said, " I finally understand why ppl keep dogs, at least dogs listen..." At the moment, I felt his pain... My tears just fall, uncontrollably...

I just couldn't understand, if he wants to throw his temper, let him be.. Why go provoked him and make the whole family so upset.. His actions might be wrong, but shouldn't we let him maintain his dad position... He's not as useless as what you think... haiz, guess I just have to forget about this...

If you can't even love your dad, how to love others... He did care when you fell sick, but I guess you didn't appreciate it...

A friend once told me, Everyone has to do a part in maintaining a family... If you don't care, don't ever think others will bother to care about you too...

Just think over it, YOU! That's right...



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  Pop Group: 2457  Haha, still remember we wanted to give our group a name.. in the end still remain as 2457.

Long to have another holiday again.. but this time harder le, 5 now so hardworking having course, dun think able to get away, 4 change job scope busy like hell now.. haha.. 2 haiz, always say no money..
 

Now when i look at this pic, i recalled how i held my breath.. haha, cos the plate i was holding have BANANA... ARGH!! I hate them... haha

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  Top 5 (so shuai)

Hehe, my Top 5 male idols ranking...

No.1: His outlook so cool, he only became famous after he turned tanned, but I like him even when he was fair, it all started when he act as Yang Guo in the Return of the Condor Heroes 1995 (or 1996)... Recently his show Step into the past was so nice too, I keep replaying the shows till my sister can't stand it.. hehe.. :)

No.2: This guy is most females prince charming.. eh, think I like him for his looks.. haha.. (superficial me)

No.3: His acting in Meteor Garden was good, but after a few shows he always seems to be stereotype, till the Lai Wo Jia Ba (Come to my House), din know he act as such a fierce person also good.. hehe.. His singing also not bad..

No.4: This guy so funny in the show The Rose, at first thought he's gay, kept such long hair (shoulder length) then actions plus his looks can misinterpret easily.. But after he cut short his hair, totally different le... :)

No.5: Think most ppl won't know who is he, unless they have watch Japanese dramas.. Love his acting in Marriage at 20.. He grew up overseas, so his English is very good for a Japanese..

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  It is only with the HEART that one can see rightly what is essential is invisible to the EYE I shouldn't have wasted my 2years on him, someone who's blind.. Whatever i had done, he just couldn't see.. or it could be my wishful thinking...

He fell out of love that year, i guess it was a tough period for him, i did my best to accompany him, be it after school or weekends.. He got himself hurt, i gave him encouragement, helped him alot, running around, in the end, i'm only just a friend.. Couldn't he sense or see that i've only given him the special treatment!

I discovered he has someone new, don't ask me how, i sort of sensed it.. I could see it in his eyes, a glow that couldn't be found when he looked at me.. I have never felt so much pain, when he told me; I have a new gf.. I couldn't breathe properly, instead, i smiled and that's good.. I realised, i cannot hold on to whatever hope i have for him anymore..

Everytime he told me; I have broken up with her, HOPE appears.. Hoping he will tell me that I'm the One he is waiting for.. but alas it was never meant to be..

I finally made up my mind, gathered all my energy into this hard task.. I told myself to forget about him, no matter what hope he gave, are not meant to be mine.. They are all false hopes.. He only treated me as a good friend, the kind you would give special treatment but not gf material..

I took a year to get over him, now we are still good friends, altho distance and time would have do some damage to our friendship, but i guess it would be better this way.. We have our lifes to go on with, whatever he's doing now, he have my support.. even it's wrong, i can only wish he see it soon.. Altho one may shoulder the wrong doings but the hurt and damage it does to others cannot be wipe away overnight..

 

----every dawn 0ffers an0ther 0pp0rtunity, an0ther chance t0 try again, f0rget yesterday, and d0n't let the set-backs and disapp0intments hold y0u back----


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